I am a non-native international student, which gives me an opportunity to see & feel different experiences within Canada.
I keep being out of focus while communicating with others in English. I need to pay twice attention to the conversation, and sometimes I misunderstand the conversation, that really makes me feel embarrassed.
Every time I experience this feeling I can even see hallucinations with some unbelievable transit in my eyes, just like their hair, face and skins begin to fuse, enlarge and blur. I feel there is a gap between us, and I cannot go across it.